emotions. questions about emotions. the truth. the brain, the mind. the heart. control. friends, company. laugh, smile. inspire. hugs. comfort. tears. take risks. take chances. hurt. scared. good. doubt. uncertainty. thinking. feelings. him, her, me.
let the words come together.
you pick which makes sense.
go figure.
If you read this journal, even if I don’t speak to you often, post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
It can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
Then post this on your journal too!
Be surprised (or not) about what people remember about you.
hay.. i just find it so wierd. to have this feeling. this crazy wierd feeling. i haven’t felt this way since, well, you know. i’m not neccessarily talking about that loving feeling. but it’s the other kind of feelings. actually it’s like that feeling when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. all i can think of is two reasons i’m feeling this way. one, about something. i kinda had my heart crushed, not by someone, but by something. it’s not that bad really. i guess i just haven’t the accepted the fact. waaah.. few more days and it’ll be all ok. i hope. second, obviously, about someone. hmm.. there’s not much i can say. there’s nothing i really want to say. but the change, the different approach, is kinda bothering me. why? i don’t know. hay.. sana makabalik na kami sa dati. naku…
* exams are almost over. one more left to go and i’m free. well for atleast a week or so. by the way, my exams were crap!! i just hate it. sobra. sabaw..
* my blog is now updated. yes, after some time, i have been able to put some time into editing my site, putting other stuff into it and of course, new entries.
btw, i also have other entries hidden or put into private for reasons i will not write here. i refuse to write it here. haha. something about a streak - moving - delays - anxiety - blahblahblah. hala, baka mabuking na. isa pa lang naman nakakaalam tungkol dyan. hehe.
* facebook. yes, people get facebook na. and add me up. haha. i only come to friendster to reply to comments nalang eh. hehe. sige naaaaaa… cmoooooooooooooon.
* birthday. someone is celebrating their birthday on tuesday. sino kaya? hahaha. ayaw pa sabihin ha. ayan, nalaman ko rin. hehe. atleast ngayon mababati na kita. hehe. alam ko kasi kapag di kita binati sa bday mo eh magtatampo ka. matampuhin ka rin eh. ayoko na kasi madagdagan pa mga nagtatampo saken dahil di ko daw sila binati nung bday nila. mahirap narin noh. hehe.
* sleep. i lack sleep. i need sleep. i want sleep. ang laki na ng eyebugs ko. sige po. goodnight.
i just wanna take this moment to breathe. one big *SIGH*.. inhale..exhale.. hooo…haa.. hooo.. haaa.. kaya to.. hinga.. hay.. shrug it off. wala to. minor set back. boo! hehe. ok nato. kaya ko to. aja! hehe. about time again.
time to reflect.
time to think.
time to do things right.
time to relax.
time to sleep.
tomorrow’s a new day. (duh…)
another bump in that parent-child relationship. errr.. nakakainis naman kasi eh. sino ba naman matutuwa kung lagi nalang nila pakialaman ung mga sulat sa akin tapos babasahin? tapos ibabalita nalang saken kung ano nakasulat sa liham. errr.. eh hindi naman nakapangalan sa kanila. tapos kung basahin at pakialaman mo ung saknila, papagalitan ka pa tapos sasabihan na parang invasion of privacy. adult stuff, blah blah.. alam mo un? parang sila taste tester or sorter na kung di pasado sa kanila nakalagay sa sulat eh di na makakarating saken. argh… eto malala, na pag bad news nakalagay about an application, ako pa ang quequestionin. asar talaga. hay buhay.. happy ‘o8 to me.
test = interview = stress = PRESSURE!
actually it’s two interviews and test. the most dreaded day is finally here. my interview for cambridge university. the outcome could actually affect my future. damn.. serious stuff pare. i’m gonna need all the luck i can get. and lots of people and friends are giving me just that. luck and all their support, confidence in me. i put emphasis on the word pressure there because there’s is simply lots of it. there’s enough pressure coming from my parents to get into one of the best (if not the best) university there is for the most demanding course i could possibly take. but they seem to have told everyone they know that i do have this interview and now alot more people have their eyes on me. alot more expectations to good. damn.. i just want this over with. breathe, anakat, breathe. hoo hoo hoo.. anyway goodluck to me. hehe.
after all that i’ve paid for and studied for and pushed myself to the limit and all the people who have my back, i hope it’s all worth it. help me Lord, amen. =)
i just wanna scream. i just wanna shout. and jump up and down. so happy. but i can’t. know why? i have no voice. oo, tama, wala akong boses ngayon. hahahaha. ang loser ko talaga. sa sobra party for my bday. hehe. sobra sad, pero sobra happy din. hehe. thanks for everything guys. love you all! muwah!
yeah, my 19th birthday’s coming up. weee.. i’m so excited. so many happenings going to happen. hehehe. here’s to good year for me. let’s enjoy my last year as a teen. heehee. let’s celebrate looking forward to another wonderful year as well. i’m gonna enjoy this dayto the max! i’m gonna make this my BEST birthday EVER. thanks so much to all those who have greeted me already starting last week pa. and thanks in advance to everyone as well. love you all. muwah! =)
note: ANG DI BABATI, PANGET! BOO. hehe. XD
p.s mga regalo ko nga pala, don’t forget. see you ayt, cool. :]
Horoscope for today: Love is the ONLY medicine for a broken heart.
ONLY?! really? hahahaha. un lang comment ko. haha.
